The ups & downs, randomness & more to drama.
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Monday, March 23, 2009 9:20 AM
In joy and sorrow ♥I finally know how it feels like missing someone very very very really really really much. It's not that I never miss someone before. It's just that this time this feeling is hard to describe, so unbearable, so hard to cope with. I miss him so much, seriously! My first night without him was like crazy kan. I didn't sleep because I can't sleep. It's like the song 'Imsomnia' by Craig David where he can't sleep till the girl is next to him. so, yeah! That's what I suffered masa malam atu. I tried stuff like counting sheep (HAHA!), listen to soft music, baca buku, angan2 but nothing worked for me. I was really tired but my eyes langsung inda mahu tidur. Barutah pernah ne aku inda dapat tidur without even drinking coffee. =S Plus, I didn't have the appetite to eat. Rindu bnr jua udah ku tu yoo.. What I did to spend the sleepless night was watching supernatural balik2 sampai 6am the next day where my mum asked for my help to bake muffins for the function krg ptgnya. We had this ceremony time ptg where my aunt is going to be engaged with this unknown guy. Finally, I get to gather with all my cousins and the families masa atu. We prepared stuff, cooked, bising2, emusi2 together. haha. At least, I got something to distract me from thinking bout my feelings. The ceremony started at 2.30pm, but the people from "Unknown" guy's side was very late. sasak ku plg. I was really exhausted after buat smua kraja atu and lgsg inda btdur dmlmnya atu kan && I didn't eat lagi. -__- Yang pentingnya, kan kepisan laa ku. Haha. Anyway, I was wearing a white baju kurung and people thought that I was the one yang kna tunangkan. =__= Panat kaliii... Me? Engaged???? HAHA. No way! Tunggu tah dalam spuluh tahun akan dtg kali, brutah aku mau. Wait wait. Sepuluh tahun akan dtg? Now, I'm 18/19. Plus, sepuluh tahun, I'll be 28/29 years old. Wow, tua bnr sudah tu aku kn engaged ah. =D Haha. oh god, why am I thinking bout this thing anyway? hehe. Anyway.... The ceremony ended by 4pm kali. I'm not sure. I didn't get the chance kan take a look on my watch. I just don't care bout the time msane. I just want it to flow dgn laju without me realizing it. I wished today will be Tuesday pasalnya by Tuesday, my darling is going to be back & I can't wait for that. =)) Okay2, back to my story... After the majlis, we the families were busy cleaning up the stuff and whatsoeva. By 7pm, we all went home. Gawd, it was really been a busy day and aku bnr2 exhausted sudah. -__- At night, I went online. My life is pretty sunyi and boring without him. Ada this friend of mine texted me and tanya whether I'm okay or inda. I spilled everything laa rahnya. This friend cakap something laa, but I'm okay. Whatever laa.. I just don't care. My darling is different and not all guys are the same. I trust him so I'm sure he has a good reason for not doing stuff like you did to your girlfriend. I'm not letting negative thoughts to take ove me, so shoo shoo. Plus, sii boyfriend told me to think positive while he's away. so that's what I'm going to do. Think positive! =)) Oh oh by the way, the Aulait cafe langsung nada call aku & Fifah. I feel like giving up waiting for them to call up. Tapinya, si Fifah cakap it's better for us not to give up till today. Kalau today dorang langsung nada call jua, we'll take actions. Kami kan sabotage pintu slidingnya ah, kami kan cat and spray graffiti nanti. Kan, Fah? HAHA. Nada waa.. =D What we'll do is call up the cafe and ask whether they are still planning to hire us up or inda. If yes, we'll wait. If no, we'll find other jobs to do && it's their lost for not hiring this semangat-bnar-sudah-kan-bkraja-disana people. =P I guess that's all for today. I'll upload some pictures after this, alright? Goodbye & Assalamualaikum, everibodih.      
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Yours truly,  ♥ also known as Deena. ♥ Bruneian. ♥ Trying to be a better person but fails everyday. ♥ Owns a fucked up life. Blog Counters, |
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